We now know why @FrankieTheSats decided to go into rehab at the end of 2011, with an Interview with Glamour Magazine she has described how she fought depression for such a long time, and eventually went to seek professional advice:
The Saturdays beauty has revealed how she was convinced she was ‘ugly’ and thought it would be best for everyone if she just disappeared.
‘It set off this spiral of negative thinking – that if I disappeared, it wouldn’t matter to anyone,’ she said of her illness, which she thinks stems back to when she was 15.
‘In fact, it would make everybody’s life easier. I felt that I was worthless, that I was ugly, that I didn’t deserve anything,’ Frankie added.
The 23-year-old, who became a star at 12 in S Club 8, said her footballer lover, Wayne Bridge, was the only person she told immediately that she needed help.
She ran away from him ‘hysterical’ while they walked their dogs and ‘sobbed and sobbed’ in a panic attack.
Frankie explained: ‘Every time I spoke to someone, I’d be thinking, “They probably think I’m a horrible person. Am I boring them? Do I look ugly?”
‘I’d always had this thing about my friends and family: that I haven’t made enough time for them because I’ve been working since I was 12.’
Frankie told Glamour magazine: ‘Since childhood, I’ve been an over-thinker, and I used to make myself sick with worrying… So there was a part of me thinking I was putting it on, that I wasn’t properly sick, and only sick people should be in hospital.
‘I got so good at covering it up, I didn’t confide in anyone. Firstly, you don’t think anyone will understand; secondly, you wouldn’t want to bother anyone with it; you feel so worthless,’ she said.
Sandford wants to flag up mental health charity Mind and the Hey, It’s OK campaign. ‘If people spoke honestly to each other, they’d realise a lot of their friends have problems like mine. [In hospital] was the first time I felt I was among people who really understood me.’
She added: ‘I did lose myself, but I feel like me again now. I try not to put pressure on myself – it’s unrealistic, no one is 100 per cent happy all of the time.’
The full interview can be found in this months Glamour Magazine, out on April 2nd.
Source: Metro via Glamour
More bits of the Interview can be found via Sky News, Sky Living, DigitalSpy, DailyMail, Mirror
I’m sure everyone here at The Saturdays Fansite, both stuff and our wonderful visitors, wish Frankie all the best 🙂 <3 xx
I feel sorry that Frankie had to feel this way for so many years, but in a way, reading this made me happy! I too suffer from depression and everything Frankie said is completely true! I always feel so ugly and think that the people around me would be better off if I weren’t here! I feel the exact way! I haven’t exactly found out how to deal with it, but I am trying! I’ve always loved Frankie (I even copied her haircut), but now I love her even more! Good luck with recovery Frankie!! <3